Sometimes...

I wrote this last week, but never finished and posted it:

Sometimes this Sucks. Sometimes the lyrics of the song make you cry such as this one titled Bastille by Pompeii: 

I was left to my own devices

Many days fell away with nothing to show

And the walls kept tumbling down
In the city that we love
Great clouds roll over the hills
Bringing darkness from above

But if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
Nothing changed at all?
And if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
You've been here before?
How am I gonna be an optimist about this?
How am I gonna be an optimist about this?

I was talking to Logan and preparing him for the next chemo so he knows what to expect, and that song came on. Sometimes it just comes crashing into you that your son has cancer, and you can't just take it all away. Sometimes you just have to sit and cry through your daughter's soccer camp when the emotions sneak up on you. Thankfully that one was followed by A Beautiful Day by U2, and it brought it all back onto the positive side. Sometimes your son says you're the best mom in the whole wide world, and that is exactly what you need.

We go in tomorrow (Tuesday) for IV chemo in his port and chemo into his spinal fluid. We also start steroids again. The bright side is that he won't have to take the Methotrexate this week because of the spinal chemo. Small celebrations. Logan told me he hates Walgreens as we drove by one a couple of weeks ago. Why would a three year old hate a store you might ask? Well, I asked him and this was his answer: "because I don't like medicine." Smart kid I've got here. Wish us smooth sailing tomorrow morning. I have included a couple of pictures of Logan and one of the finished Olaf cake. I worked pretty hard on it, so wanted to show it off.