Updates

Logan has been super busy. He was Boy of the Year for the Rocky Mountain chapter of the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. Basically this means that he was one of the faces of a big fundraising campaign. We tried to make it out to several fundraising events for the candidates, which kept us very busy for that 10 week period of time. Logan loved going to all the events and talking to people. He became very good at talking into the microphone with his favorite line "Thank you for helping to raise money to fight cancer, so more people can be survivors like me." I have to say that Eric and I were so proud of him going out there and raising awareness. We really want to give back and help fund research to help find a cure. No one should have to go through all the worry, pain and hardship that a cancer diagnosis brings. And we are a success story, but it still wasn't easy. It was so hard watching Logan go through all the treatment, just wishing I could take it all away.

At the end of the 10 week campaign, LLS held a Gala to celebrate and honor the Man and Woman of the Year. It was such a fun party and wonderful time to celebrate. Of course, Logan was a show stealer along with the Girl of the Year, Madison. Those two together made quite the impact. We are so thankful to all the candidates, and all the people at LLS that work so hard for this great cause.

Logan also was an honored hero for an LLS fundraiser at Rampart High School called Bald for Bucks. It was a HUGE head shaving event, and the school broke records with how much money the raised. We were just blown away by the selfless fundraising for such an amazing cause. Those kids are making such a difference in the world so young, it was impressive. Here is Logan in the middle of some of the shavees (many of them had already left):

Other than all the fundraising, Logan has been just living a normal and energetic life. He finished first grade and is having a fun summer including snowboarding lessons, visiting family in Oklahoma, watching soccer games and swimming. 

Not so sweet dreams

I had a dream nightmare last night. In my dream Logan had a relapse, and he was back in the fight for his life. I woke from it gasping and startled, exactly like when you wake up from a dream in which you are falling. It was that scary. It was one of those dreams that are so realistic that after you wake, you actually have to mentally tick off what has happened in the past couple of days just to make sure it is not true. My first thought when I woke was "oh, it was a dream." But then I wasn't so sure. I went through the events of the dream: Sara telling us that Logan had relapsed. The pitying looks of the nurses at the clinic. Myself collapsing in tears at the thought of putting Logan through all that again. Even questioning the treatment course when it was laid before me. Why a similar course of chemo vs a bone marrow transplant? That's about the time I woke up. Even in my dream I was analytical and wanting to know details. I think that is one of the reasons why it felt so real. It is still haunting me this evening. I put a reminder in my phone to write it here, then I put it off when it dinged. I didn't want to face it and fully remember the details. Then I forced myself, and it is painful. Though I  am glad I am doing it, because it is therapeutic in a way. I can let it go, and move on because I can't stop it if Logan relapses. I have no control. That dream is my worst nightmare, and it could very well happen. I cannot do anything about it.

I think the fear will always be there, though I try and shove it to the back of my mind. Since I cannot stop it, I can live and love my family. I can enjoy a nice Christmas with my loved ones, with Logan right in the middle of it all. I can plan ahead, look forward to Logan's events next year with the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. We can make plans for fundraising, so that our team is bigger this year for Light the Night and brings in more money. Research is needed. Not only for leukemia and lymphoma, but specifically childhood cancers. Only 4% of national cancer funding goes to all of the childhood cancers combined. That is ridiculous! Our children are not just smaller adults. They suffer many more long term effects, and (hopefully) have significantly more time for these effects to impact their lives. We don't know what will happen with Logan in the future. We do not know how all the chemo will impact his future health. We can just hope, and advocate, and raise money, and love.

Updates

Logan has been doing pretty well lately. Other than fighting off a cold for the last two weeks, he has stayed pretty healthy this fall. We go to the clinic tomorrow for blood tests and his monthly exam just to check things out and make sure he is still on the mend and getting closer to "normal." Though, since he has been sick, his tests will be off and not give a true reading of how things are going. He usually has elevated white blood cells that reflect that his body is fighting off the germs. Hopefully that is all the tests will show. I have noticed over the past few months since Logan has been off treatment that I start to have some anxiety over his clinic visits. I guess that I am a little more worried over relapse now that he is off of the chemo. I try not to stress about it, but I can tell that my heart beats a little faster until we hear the results. Probably for the best that they do not take my blood pressure.

Other than that, Logan has been staying busy with school and activities. He just finished soccer a few weeks ago, and then Halloween was here. He enjoyed being Hulkbuster (which made RDJ really excited to hear that was Logan's costume!). Then Logan was a special guest at Rocky Mountain Con. Bob, the man who was Batman at Logan's big party, invited us as his guests to this great event. We had so much fun going around to all the booths and exhibitors. The kids had fun dressing up for it, and then seeing all the people around in costume too.

 

The kids also ran their final mile for the Kids Running America Marathon and received their medals:

Logan had his birthday party with his Civil War cake. He decided on this cake after talking with Robert Downey Jr. and after getting the movie:

And we also had fun at Light the Night, an annual tradition for Logan:

 

Lots of exciting stuff (part 2) You really need to read this one!

OK, let's continue this train of positivity. When I left off, I talked about Logan's party and what a great time he had despite having broken his arm. One of the heroes at the party, said that she had a gift on the way for Logan, but it had not arrived before the party. Well, a week later, she let us know that it was here. She brought over a couple of signed prints from Bob Layton! He is the artist behind Iron Man, and the prints were pretty cool.

 

Logan then soon received another amazing gift. He received a package from Marvel Studios that included MANY movie posters, a hat and some books. It was pretty amazing and has made Logan love his room even more. They heard about Logan through a video that our friend Melanie posted in hopes to get Robert Downey Jr to Logan's end of chemo party.

 

Well, he didn't make it to the party, which is completely OK. But a few weeks later, we did hear from his team and Logan received a very special FaceTime call from Tony Stark himself.

It blew us away and we were all so excited. It was such an amazing and memorable experience, and we will treasure that time for the rest of our lives. Everyone that we emailed with, spoke to, etc. was so kind and we were so impressed. Truly a class act. Also thanks so much to Melanie for coming up with the idea and seeing it through. We cannot thank you enough!

But wait, there's more... Logan was recently selected as the Boy of the Year for the Rocky Mountain chapter of the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. This is such a great honor. He will be one of the faces for a huge fundraising campaign: The Man and Woman of the Year. We will be working toward helping to raise funds that will go to research a cure for blood cancers. And with that, we are off to Light the Night tomorrow. Our team is still trying to raise some last minute funds, so please go to our page and take a look. Even $5 helps the fight against cancers like Logan had. Thanks to all of Logan's fans, and also thanks for sticking with it and reading this far.

Lot's of exciting stuff (part 1)

OK, I know I always say this, but sorry for the long time in between updates. Logan has been busy living life and having a ball. Since the last post, Logan had surgery to remove his port. Of course with our little man, things did not go exactly as planned. Since he had the port in for so long, it had become adhered to his vein wall. So, when the surgeon tried to remove it, part of it separated and did not come out, instead staying lodged inside of his vein. So, Logan had to be transported up to the main Children's hospital for interventional radiology to perform a second surgery and remove the remaining piece. By then it was pretty late, so we stayed the night. They put us on the oncology floor, which we had not been on for over three years. It brought back some strong emotions and memories, but we made it through. Thankfully we were able to go home the next day, and Logan rested and recovered.

After all that excitement, we geared up for Logan's end of chemo party. We were ready to celebrate! The party included so much fun, and was a community effort. We had several superheroes volunteer their time from the Colorado branch of Heroes Alliance. My friend Michelle painted faces, and other friends pitched in to help too. Thanks Candice! Everyone brought food to share, and Pizza Hut even donated a couple extra pizzas. My friend Daelyn and her business Flashes of Fun gave us a huge discount on her awesome selfie station, and the pictures were amazing! I definitely recommend them to add fun and great pictures to any event you plan.

The superheroes were so great. They gave Logan some gifts and hung out for most of the afternoon. It just made the afternoon so special and memorable. So many of Logan's friends and classmates came. There were also several teachers from his school (current, retired, and ones with new jobs) and the assistant principal. His oncologist and several nurses, etc. from the clinic came. We very much appreciate the sense of community and support from those who came and those who wanted to come but just couldn't make it. One more memorable moment of the party was when Logan fell from the monkey bars and broke his arm. Because, of course. Never a dull moment with our superhero. Thankfully now his arm is healed and the cast is off.

This feels amazing!!!

Well, we have been on a countdown for a long time now, and guess what...LOGAN TOOK HIS LAST CHEMO MEDS LAST NIGHT!!!!!!! Can you tell I'm excited? We have been so wrapped up in the end of summer and his countdown with a lot of lasts lately that I have not updated. Sorry about that. Last week, Logan had his final IV chemo at the clinic:

It was pretty exciting and we were all there, and taking lots of pics:

Even before that we had started the final countdown: 

And just like that, he took his last chemo pills. I posted a couple of videos on his Facebook page including him taking the last pill and his personal version of the mic drop that I find hilarious. It all seems pretty unreal, and we have had some crazy emotions over the past few weeks. Many happy tears, and cheers for our own personal Avenger. He has taught us so much about perseverance, strength and bravery over the past 3 years. 

We just have a few more hurdles ahead. Logan has surgery to get his port out on Monday, and then his celebration is that weekend. We are excited and ready. One last pic of my personal hero: